Thank You for Your Prayers
Health Update Below!
By David J. Stewart | November 2011
According to the statistics, this ministry website is now receiving over 1,000,000 visitors per month. I sent numerous e-mails to my web hosting company, since they've completed updated their servers with new ones in July of this year, to make sure the stats were accurate and they verified that they are. God is doing a marvellous work through this bastion of truth on the internet, now reaching over 1,000,000 people per month with the truth...
Summary by Month
Daily Average Monthly Totals Hits Files Pages Visits Sites KBytes Visits Pages Files Hits
Nov 2011 195839 129106 90774 44125 877057 827489789 1323773 2723233 3873201 5875189 Oct 2011 202869 133724 92930 44402 921651 1053923410 1376467 2880835 4145463 6288957 Sep 2011 190387 124070 84446 40710 907858 732486055 1221327 2533395 3722110 5711637 Aug 2011 170788 113960 78456 34595 746098 781039420 1072473 2432154 3532784 5294440
I love what Dr. Jack Hyles (1926-2001) used to say...
"A little person in a little place can use a little thing, perform a
little task, and receive a great reward." —Dr. Jack Hyles
What a great statement! I want to make every day count for my Savior. The Devil is working relentlessly because he knows his time is running short. The evil New World Order is pushing full-steam ahead, like the Titanic headed for certain disaster in the icy Atlantic Ocean.
The New World Order will ultimately fail. The Bible plainly teaches this in Nebuchadnezzar's image in Daniel 2:44, “And in the days of these kings shall the God of heaven set up a kingdom, which shall never be destroyed: and the kingdom shall not be left to other people, but it shall break in pieces and consume all these kingdoms, and it shall stand for ever.” It's just a matter of time, and I believe it won't be long. The Rapture is imminent my friend. The trumpet is out of the case! World War 3 has already begun. Are you ready to meet your Maker?
I know I have countless friends out there from around the world... Jamaica, South Africa, Ireland, England, Iran, the Philippines, Canada and many other countries... praying for my health and needful End Times ministry. Thank you with all my heart. Thank you my friends! You are my family! You are a part of this ministry if you pray for this ministry!!! You will receive rewards from God for praying for this ministry, as fellow-laborers with me, Christ's servant... winning lost souls into the kingdom of God, and exposing darkness by shining the Light of God's Word.
Billy Sunday said...
“If you want to drive the devil out of the world, hit him with a cradle instead of a crutch.” —Billy Sunday
This ministry is reaching untold young people who are searching the internet for answers to life and God. Tragically, most of the religious propaganda being promoted across cyberspace is demonic lies, heresy and misleading deception. My ministry is based upon the precious Word of God—the inspired King James Bible!!! When all else fails, read the instructions! God gave us the Bible as a Lamp unto our weary feet in this sin-cursed world.
Psalms 119:105, “Thy word is a lamp unto my feet, and a light unto my path.”
Only God knows how many teenagers are being influenced for God by this great work. Surveys have shown that most people are turning to the internet for faith-based matters. My ministry is far bigger than I am, for I am nothing except a clump of clay lovingly formed by an omnipotent and awesome God. It's all about the name of Jesus, the name above every other name. HEAR YE HIM!!!
I don't want your money, but I could make a lot if I wanted, no doubt whatsoever. People would just give me their money if I wanted it, but I don't want it for numerous reasons. I have always wanted to let people know where my heart is at, and it is clear that I do what I do for the Lord. I am laying up treasures in Heaven as Jesus taught in Matthew 6:20.
Another reason I don't accept money if that, guaranteed, it would affect the way I write articles. That's why Jack and Rexella Van Impe sold out, erring from the faith for the love of money, literally praising and promoting the Devil's Pope and Satanic Roman Catholicism. Those two rascals won't have a pot to grow flowers in if they're saved and get to Heaven. Talk about Ananias and Sapphira! They've sold out for money! As the Apostle Peter said in Acts 8:20, “Thy money perish with thee, because thou hast thought that the gift of God may be purchased with money.” God is not for sale my friend! America is going to Hell in a wheelbarrow because it's pastors and evangelists prioritize making money over preaching THE TRUTH!!! Most preachers are freeloaders, sold out to money and are in utter denial about it. A preacher is not called by God merely to perform weddings, funerals and conduct business meetings; but to “PREACH THE WORD; be instant in season, out of season; reprove, rebuke, exhort with all longsuffering and doctrine” (2nd Timothy 4:2).
I love Dr. John R. Rice (1895-1980), who said...
"On moral matters where right and wrong are involved, and where the Bible clearly speaks, many preachers have so compromised and sold out, and are so afraid of their congregations, that they cannot give the clear Word of God. God pity the preacher who is afraid to preach against sin just because somebody will cry 'politics'! "
SOURCE: Dr. Rice... Here Are More Questions; Question: Should politics and religion be mixed?; by Dr. John R. Rice, pg. 250, Sword of the Lord Publishers; 1973, ISBN: 0-87398-157-X
Why aren't America's preachers crying aloud against the criminal activities plaguing Washington D.C., our Pentagon and Wall Street? Please read, 10,400,000 American Families are Sliding Toward Losing Their Homes in Foreclosure. I detest pastors who browbeat their congregation for 10% tithes and then offerings on top of that, while not giving a hoot about the economic terrorism deliberately inflicted on American citizens by the Federal Reserve banksters! The dirty agenda behind the creation of 501c3 state-licensed churches was to have a way to silence Christians... either shut up or lose your tax-exempt status! That would put a large church out of business over night, and that's what Christianity has deteriorated to in America... a dirty business! To Hades with the government licensing the Church!
"So, as an honest Bible preacher, obeying the plain commands of God, I must speak out against corruption and immorality. Waste, corruption, the taking away of men's freedom and the seizing of men's property, these sins every honest preacher must condemn and every honest Christian must disavow."
SOURCE: Dr. Rice... Here Are More Questions; Question: Should politics and religion be mixed?; by Dr. John R. Rice, pg. 249, Sword of the Lord Publishers; 1973, ISBN: 0-87398-157-X
It's time to get MAD... Make A Difference!
God answers prayer! I have learned that God answers prayer, but in His own time and manner (usually not when and how we expect). Isaiah 55:8-9 plainly teaches that God's thoughts and ways are very different from ours, as far as the heavens are above the earth. The Bible says in 2nd Peter 3:8 that one day is as a thousand years to the Lord and a thousand years as one day. Thus, we live live in 24 hour segments and tend to expect God to work in our time frame; but God works in His own time. God works in decades my friend. You likely won't see God's hand at work over weeks, months or even years; but in hindsight you can look back and see what God hath wrought over time. That is why it is very true that the study of history is HIS-STORY. I love that!
My Health Update — November of 2011
I am hurting as I type. My neck feels like a filled balloon ready to burst with tension. As I type, the toothache-like gnawing neck pain is horrible. I took another 40 mg. of Oxycontin 15 minutes ago, but it hasn't helped yet. So I just took a Percocet 10/325. The pain is so bad right now. I've been reading the book of Job lately and it is precious to me. I immediately related to Job's afflictions when I read...
Job 10:1, “My soul is weary of my life...”
That well describes how I feel when the burning, tingling, puffiness and pain are bad. I have been tired lately, as the meds sedate me. I am so physically and emotionally drained from coping with the pain, tingling, burning, puffiness and neck tension. My peripheral neuropathy and neck pain vary from day-to-day. Sometimes I feel pretty good, but at other times I am overwhelmed with pain, burning, tingling and puffiness in my arms and neck. I always have some amount of neck pain, but on a good day I can get more done. I've been forgetting things more than usual lately.
As long as I consistently take my prescription medications I feel so, so. I'm presently taking 1,800 mg daily of Gabapentin (Neurontin) and 160 mg. daily of Oxycontin, while has helped tremendously. I take 10 mg. of Ambien to sleep at night. And I have one Percocet 10/325 daily for breakthrough pain (which I use daily). Without the prescription meds I'd be a basket case of pain and emotions caused by the peripheral neuropathy (burning, tingling, puffiness and pain in my limbs). The Gabapentin has helped reduce my nerve pain considerably. I can play my steel guitar now without pain. If I forget to take my Gabapentin, my arms and fingers start to tingle. If I forget to take my Oxycontin, my neck pain becomes chronic. Literally, I live on medications and thank God for them. It's been 1 1/2 years since my second failed surgery and I doubt if I'll ever be relieved of this Hades-on-earth pain.
The tingling, burning and puffed-up feeling in my arms is constant and never goes away, but I have grown about as accustomed to it as I think I'm going to get. It's a major discomfort, but it's my new life and I have to adapt. My right leg always feels partially asleep 24/7. It's weird when my right leg falls asleep, because it feels half awake too (the opposite). I have to be careful not to walk on my leg when it's asleep. If I had been born this way I wouldn't know the difference I suppose. Much of it is a mindset. I am blessed to be functional and have most of my health. Thankfully, my blood pressure and sugar levels are normal.
I have been drinking a 12 oz. cup of regular V-8 juice daily mixed with 4 Tablespoons of freshly ground flaxseeds (soluble fiber). Flax is known for its many healing properties. I bought a $20 Mr. Coffee grinder to grind the flax seeds. It works well. I've been ordering my flax from a family owned farm in North Dakota. I feel healthier inside my body since adding flax to my diet. There's many flax recipes as well, but I just mix it with V-8. That's my own little invention, but I think V-8 goes well with ground up flax seed. The only thing is that you need to drink an additional glass of water since the flax seeds absorb moisture. I hated V-8 my whole life until a couple years ago, now I love the stuff. Go figure! It's eight vegetable juices blended together; hence, the name V-8 juice.
After the surgery in April of 2010 I was a mess physically and emotionally, depressed that my peripheral neuropathy had worsened considerably. Only God knows all the battles and miseries I went through during my two surgeries and afterwards. I could write a book. I looked to the Lord from whence came my help. Psalms 121:1, “I will lift up mine eyes unto the hills, from whence cometh my help. My help cometh from the LORD, which made heaven and earth.” I love the Lord Jesus Christ so much! I am not worthy of the least of God's tender mercies, nor of all the truth which He has shown unto me, His servant (Genesis 32:10). God is a good God, justified in all His doings and I am indebted to Him for the gift of His dear Son. This life will soon be over, amen and amen, the time is running short my friend. May we all be soul-conscious (Luke 8:15) and set our affections on things above where Christ has risen and reigns on the right-hand of the Father (Colossians 3:1-2; Romans 8:34). Jesus may come today!
I take earnest interest in the afflictions of others because of my own bodily afflictions. I can relate to those who suffer horribly. I read today about Hollywood actor George Clooney, who suffered a severe spinal cord injury while making a movie in 2005. Instead of using a stunt double, Clooney decided to do his own stunt (which many actors do). He was partially paralyzed at first, and contemplated suicide; but then underwent surgery weeks later and he's better now. Clooney is a blessed man to have been made well again. Sadly, Clooney told The Washington Post in a 1997 interview that he's not sure God exists...
I don't believe in Heaven and Hell," he says. "I don't know if I believe in God. All I know is that as an individual, I won't allow this life -- the only thing I know to exist -- to be wasted."
SOURCE: The Washington PostFrom Larry King Live February 16, 2006:
King: Did you lose your faith, or do you still have it?
Clooney: I don't have a specific....Yeah...I don't....You know. It's an interesting thing. I'll tell you what's tricky about this. In talking about religion, if you're well known, anything you say, it sort of takes off about a bunch of other people and attacks their belief. So I always try to say that, you know, first and foremost, that whatever anybody believes as long as it doesn't hurt anybody else, it's fair enough, and works, and I think, is real, and matters. I don't happen to have those beliefs, as much, you know, I don't believe in those things.
Like Clint Eastwood, Clooney straddles-the-fence, trying to maintain a middle-of-the-road position on God and his beliefs. The Words of Jesus Christ come to mind in Luke 9:23, “And he said to them all, If any man will come after me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross daily, and follow me.” And again in 2nd Timothy 2:13 the Bible says, “If we believe not, yet he abideth faithful: he cannot deny himself.” Luke 6:35 amazingly teaches that God is kind unto the unthankful and to the evil. God is good to even the worst of sinners; yet if lost men and women won't come to Jesus Christ for eternal life (John 5:40), then God cannot be blamed, for He was there all the time.
Coping with Peripheral Neuropathy and Neck Pain-Tension
Job 16:1, “Then Job answered and said, I have heard many such things: miserable comforters are ye all. Shall vain words have an end? or what emboldeneth thee that thou answerest? I also could speak as ye do: if your soul were in my soul's stead, I could heap up words against you, and shake mine head at you. But I would strengthen you with my mouth, and the moving of my lips should asswage your grief.”
I've had some people advise me to stop taking the prescription medications, but they're not the one suffering and don't understand my medical condition. They don't understand what it's like to have chronic pain. One man told me that he chooses to live with his neck pain instead of take dangerous drugs. Personally, I'd rather die than live without the pain medications because the pain gets so bad. Liver tests show that I'm ok drug wise.
After explaining my medical situation, one college guy said, if you can carry your guitar, radio and stuff to the beach you must be doing ok. I pointed out to him that I rolled it on a two-wheeler cart. It's amazing how lacking of understanding some people can be, insensitive and unintentionally mean. I didn't say anything unkind to the person, but gave him a Gospel of John and smiled. He came back after snorkeling and brought his girlfriend to see my steel guitar. He said my music sounded really good. I knew that he didn't mean to be unkind, it's just because he's younger and doesn't understand what peripheral neuropathy is, and what it feels like inside afflicting one's body all the time. I love people and am learning that we all just say really dumb things at times. Let go, let God.
I feel trapped inside my body. I look fine outwardly to people, but everything within me is crying out. The burning alone is overwhelming at times. Something happening during my second surgery that really messed me up. The spinal cord is like tissue paper and it doesn't take much to damage it. While grinding away a bone spur in my neck, the surgeon must have frayed my spinal cord. Something went wrong.
I saw an ortho-surgeon in May of 2011 who advised against any more surgery. I saw a neurologist in August of 2011 who said I have a pinched nerve still due to another bone spur in the back at C5-C6, but he also discouraged me from any further surgery. The bone spur at C5-C6 in the back may be the original problem for all I know, but at some point I have to stop getting surgeries because each surgery brings a diminishing return, leaving scar-tissue and the messed up problems that I'm dealing with now. I'm worse off and there's nothing anybody can do about it. A third surgery may mess me up even more. Getting surgery is always a big gamble. So I am in the same situation as before, wanting to get medical intervention, but being told to live with my present condition rather than risk further health damage by more surgery. It's a horrible and frustrating situation to be in. I tell people not to get surgery if they're not certain, because of my messed condition as evidence of what can happen when things go wrong in surgery.
The 1800 mg. of Gabapentin has significantly reduced the pain and tingling in my arms, fingers, and especially my thumbs. Unfortunately the medication absolutely takes all my energy away. I still feel sharp shooting pain in my forefingers while typing sometimes, but when the pain is absent I can actually type using just my two forefingers... 60-70 words per minute on a keyboard. I do make typos, which Microsoft FrontPage catches thankfully. That's pretty fast typing even if typed correctly using all the fingers. A secretary is required to type 40 words per minute to get a job. I've tried to type correctly the conventional way using the Mavis Typing program, but never had the patience to stick with it. God has blessed me with the two-finger typing skill. I know where all the letters are subconsciously. I learned how to type the wrong way, but I can do it well. I have to look at the keyboard while typing though.
Since I write my articles from my heart as God's Holy Spirit puts truths in my heart to preach from His Word, I can type them out fairly quickly. Yet, ironically, it takes me ten-times longer to proofread, reread, and make sure that I am comfortable publishing what I am going to say to 400-500 people daily in my recent section. That's more people than most churches have members. The Lord has given me the opportunity to preach to millions of people for a reason. I am meticulous about words and saying them correctly. God has put that desire into my heart.
I humbly thank God for the opportunity to share my heart and reach others for Christ.
That's one of the most frustrating things I contend with is people's lack of sympathy and understanding. People judge by what they see, and not by what a person suffering with peripheral neuropathy feels inside their body. If you are taking prescription medications, only you can determine if they are helping you or not. I could not have a life without the Oxycontin. I don't feel euphoric or anything, it just greatly reduces the toothache-like constant pain in my neck. My body is very opiate tolerant, which means I can take large quantities of opium-based drugs. Some people cannot. I still feel the pain all the time, but it's bearable with the meds. I thank God for them.
Since I cannot change the immature way that many people think and behave, I can change me with God's help and learn how to deal with people. Mature Christianity is learning to love the unloving, care for the uncaring, and to do as the Lord... being kind to the unthankful and to the evil (Luke 6:35). Christ is our example to exemplify in our daily life.
I am convinced that there are natural remedies, but they are outlawed so the Big Pharma companies can make profits. That's just the way America is these days. What can a person do? I believe that God gave us opium (from which heroine, and oxycodone is derived) to kill our physical pain. That's why God made it for us; however, I don't like Tylenol because it attacks the liver (oxycodone does not). That why Oxycontin is safer for me to take; whereas Percocet contain 325 mg. of Tylenol and 10 mg. of Oxycodone. Percodan uses aspirin instead, but messes up my body so I can't take it.
Don't let people make you feel inferior to them. I was reading the Bible this week (surprise!) ...lol. I read Job. Job's so-called “friends” were running there mouths, condemning and criticizing him. Job finally got upset at them and said in Job 12:2, “No doubt but ye are the people, and wisdom shall die with you.” Job was mocking them for their arrogance, since they seemed to have all the answers to Job's life.
As believers in Christ we are to love all people unconditionally, as God loves all mankind (John 3:16). God will judge all humanity individually (Romans 8:34; 14:10-12; James 4:12). Never hold a grudge against anyone, because God is the only Judge (James 5:9). Let go, let God! If someone has wronged you, God will deal with them, so we don't have to. God says it is His job to recompense evil and good (Romans 12:19). It is easy to let things go if you trust the Lord to keep His promises. In Matthew 12:36 Jesus said that people will give account for even the words they speak on Judgment Day.
Job said, “My soul is weary of my life...” (Job 10:1). What a statement... MY SOUL IS WEARY OF MY LIFE! I've been there my friend, and I know what Job felt. I truly know what it means to suffer, and to feel the horror of great darkness over my soul which Abraham felt in Genesis 15:12. Psalms 32:10, “Many sorrows shall be to the wicked: but he that trusteth in the LORD, mercy shall compass him about.”
James 5:13, “Is any among you afflicted? let him pray.”
The neck pain is so bad at times that I have to close my eyes to concentrate when I'm talking to people, and that scares some people. It is lonely suffering in so much pain when so few people truly grasp what I'm dealing with. I feel burning and tingling from my neck down both arms and to a lesser extent, my legs throughout the day. It's mostly my arms affected. But I have stabbing razorblade like pain into my left and right toes throughout the day. Thankfully, it's only intermittent (unlike the constant toothache-like neck pain and tension in my neck).
One of the books that have encouraged me is PERIPHERAL NEUROPATHY by Norman Latov, MD, PhD, who shares his own medical afflictions (neuropathy) with others to encourage them. Dr. Latov states..
Functioning day to day is not easy. Living with neuropathy teaches you very quickly that you cannot take anything for granted. Just a few years ago, if someone had told me that walking up a flight of stairs could be agonizing and make me feel like I'd just climbed Mount Everest, I wouldn't have believed them. Let me tell you: I believe them now.
From the outside, you could never know anything is wrong. In fact, someone recently said how lucky I was that no one can tell I have this disease. Actually, it's a double-edge sword. I don't want people to think something is wrong with me. On the other hand, I often feel like I'm suffering in silence because no one understands what I'm living with. I try very hard to hide what I'm going through. ...
When you are diagnosed with peripheral neuropathy, you constantly are confronted with what life was like “before” and “after.” “Before” meant living without having to think about every little thing you do. It meant walking down stairs without having your heart skip a beat as you fear you may tumble down instead of walk down. “Before” meant taking a step without having to take a step.
“After” means thinking before doing. When you wake up in the morning, you get out of bed, remembering to be careful not to lose your balance.
SOURCE: PERIPHERAL NEUROPATHY: When the Numbness, Weakness, and Pain Won't Stop; by Norman Latov, MD, PhD; pages 103-104; ISBN-13:978-1-932603-59-0
That is exactly what I have been diagnosed with (peripheral neuropathy) and am going through. I have also been diagnosed with stenosis (narrowing of the spinal cord pathway and radiculopathy (tingling, burning, weakness, and pain radiating in the arms and legs). I read this passage and wanted to cry because that is exactly how I feel. I feel alone when I'm around people because they don't know the raging storm inside of my body... burning, tingling and pain in my arms and legs, arms that feel twice their normal size, my neck feeling like a bomb ready to blow, and neck pain like a toothache that radiates into my gums and facial area. It's a miserable way to exist. It seems like only a dream when I think back to a time in my life when I was pain free and happy.
I Need Your Constant Prayers
A lot of people don't understand what it's like to suffer in constant pain, and most people simply don't care. The world is a very selfish place, which is why Philippians 2:21 says most people don't care about the THINGS WHICH ARE JESUS CHRIST'S. Prayer is one of those things, and I need your continuous prayers. Just a short mention to God every day. I think that's the only thing that has helped me this far is the prayers of others. That's why the only thing that I have ever asked for during the 9-years of this ministry is other's prayers, and no more. I'll be homeless before I'll receive a penny for serving God. I want everyone to know where my heart is at, i.e., in truly helping others for Christ freely and genuinely.
I tell the Lord continually that even if I don't receive a single reward in Heaven, my reward will be the people who've been helped through my labors. YOU ARE MY REWARD! Just knowing that God is using my humble labors to help you is my greatest desire. One of the greatest compliments I have ever received was from a man who said, “Thank you for allowing God to do all this through you.” Wow, what a humbling statement! I never thought of it that way.
Caring for the things of Christ is directly proportional to caring for others. You can't be right with God and wrong with your neighbor. Philippians 2:5 tells us to Let this mind be in you, which was also in Christ Jesus. What mind is that? We find out in Verses 3-4...
Philippians 2:3-4, “Let nothing be done through strife or vainglory; but in lowliness of mind let each esteem other better than themselves. Look not every man on his own things, but every man also on the things of others.”
The Bible teaches for us to view other people as being better than ourselves. Even the Lord Jesus thought this way. This is exactly what Philippians 2:5 says is the mind of Christ. Jesus washed His disciple's dirty feet. Jesus was a servant. Jesus taught that the greatest among us is the one who serves the others. Jesus looked upon the needs and concerns of others.
Most people view others as being lower than themselves, which is sinful pride. Only by sinful pride does one gossip, slander, or talk evil about another person (Proverb 13:10, “Only by pride cometh contention...”). Our Lord Jesus Christ esteemed others better than Himself, and looked upon the things of others as a humble servant. What a precious Savior!
There is hatred everywhere we turn these days. People have become so sinfully proud, arrogant, high-minded, selfish, false accusers, greedy, malign, vindictive, insane, unthankful, deceptive, perverted, dirty-minded, phony, self-righteous, corrupt, idolatrous, covetous, boozers, sexually immoral, dishonest, murderous, indifferent, and wicked. Yet Christ knowing this about humanity, willing chose to go to the cross (Hebrews 12:2, “...for the joy that was set before Him...”) to suffer, bleed, and die for our sins (Romans 5:8-9). We are so undeserving of God's love.
The world has gone insane. Wickedness and madness always go hand-in-hand. Only a crazy person would murder their own baby by abortion and see no harm in doing so. These are perilous times as 2nd Timothy 3:1-7 foretold, not seen since the time of Noah (just as Jesus Christ prophesied in Matthew 24:37-39). Everyone wants to eat, drink, and be merry; but hardly anyone cares about the things which are Jesus Christ's (Philippians 2:21).
Perhaps the greatest sin of all is indifference (not caring one way or the other, particularly concerning the things which are Christ's). Jesus said that the generation who perished in the flood, “KNEW NOT UNTIL THE FLOOD CAME, AND TOOK THEM ALL AWAY... so shall also the coming of the Son of man be” (Matthew 24:39). The greatest sin of the people who went to Hell in Noah's time was not caring about anything except eating, drinking, having sex, and making merriment while life was good. Nearly every place one goes these days in America, there are garbage pails and dumpsters filled with beer cans, beer cans, and more beer cans. Americans are beer drinking buffoons!
I will continue my ministry by God's grace as long as I am able. Hate-speech laws are right around the corner.
Internet Censorship Storm is Coming
Internet 2 will eliminate many webpages and websites from the search engines. Already, many of my webpages are being censored on the internet in search engines because they are politically incorrect and offensive. Type in “America is evil” in Google or StartPage and my article has been censored. It doesn't even show up and that's the exact title of the webpage. Here's the actual article. Most Americans don't consider legalized abortion, pornography, and same-sex marriage as evil. Most Americans couldn't care less about the 1,455,590 innocent Iraqis who've been falsely accused of having WMD's, murdered, and then had their oil stolen. Well I care, and it is evil what America has done to them. Our nation has MUCH blood on its hands!!! I love my country and am patriotic; but that doesn't mean that we can kill, falsely accuse, and steal in the name of God and freedom. Who's kidding who?
All I've ever asked from anyone is for their prayers, and that is all I'll ever ask. My reward is in Heaven (Matthew 6:20). 1st Peter 1:7 says that the TRIAL OF OUR FAITH is worth MUCH MORE (not just more, but MUCH MORE) than gold. Gold sells for well over $1,000 an ounce. God says that all of our trials, tribulations, and turmoil in life are worth more than gold. 1st Peter 1:7, “That the trial of your faith, being much more precious than of gold that perisheth, though it be tried with fire, might be found unto praise and honour and glory at the appearing of Jesus Christ.” As much as I have a hard time suffering, this Scripture comforts me. I don't care about gold, but I certainly don't want to suffer either. Albeit, God says that my suffering and pain is far more valuable than gold.
This truth is one of the DEEP THINGS OF GOD that 1st Corinthians 2:10 speaks of, which are taught to us by the Spirit of God abiding within every believer (Romans 8:9). The heathen world cannot even begin to comprehend how one's problems, sufferings, and miseries could be of more value than gold and wealth. God says that all of our burdens are much more valuable than anything gold can buy. Why you ask? We find the answer in 2nd Corinthians 12:9, “And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.” God has never had a child too weak to be made use of, but He has had many too strong to be used for the cause of Christ. God is using my suffering to help others, for my ministry was born and continues out of immense pain, suffering and infirmities.
Until a person is afflicted with endless pain, they naturally can't relate to such suffering and can't possibly understand. They just can't. I know what's it's like to be outside on a beautiful day with the sun shining, and everybody is enjoying life and having a good time; but physical suffering within my body is afflicting me and it overshadows me.
The Next John R. Rice?
I've always been a bit nervous around people (and my peripheral neuropathy makes it ten times worse). I had a hard time emotionally while I spent 8-years in Bible college back in 1985-1993. I was going to Bible college by day, driving 70-miles to work afterwards, working in a truck-repair shop for 8-hours until after midnight when I got off work, and then I was up the next morning at 6 a.m. to do it all over again. After years of doing that, I was burned out before I graduated; but I finished and got the training I went there to receive. Most precious to me was sitting under Dr. Jack Hyles' preaching for 8-years, which was the real training. God has used pastor Hyles' sermons to help me through some difficult times in life and I am so grateful that hundreds of those sermons are still available today.
I remember one particular class I took, sitting up front in the second row from the Bible teacher. He saw that I was kind of timid and downcast. The teacher thought he'd mock me and have some fun one day, saying that perhaps I'd one day be the next John. R. Rice. My face turned red and I was humbled in front of everybody in class by the fact that he would even compare me to such a great man of God. I soaked it up. I never thought in a million years that God could do something great with a nobody like me. I was really encouraged that a teacher believed in me, thinking that I could become something great for God one day. My heart yearned for God to use my life for His glory.
A student became jealous of me and confronted me in the hallway after class, saying, “The next John R. Rice, yeah, right?” And then the student told me that the teacher was just horse-playing around with me and to “wake up.” Then I realized that the teacher was indeed sporting with me, just having fun, because he saw that I was eating it up in class. I was deeply hurt. I just let it go, like so many other pains in my life. I've always known that it doesn't matter what anyone says; God is the One Who decides who goes where and does what in life. I've never wanted to be anything; I've just wanted to please the Lord and be what He wants me to be, and God has used this humble sinner to accomplish great things in the Lord's name. If God will continue to use me, then I am His humble servant. Here am I Lord, please send me!
Hindsight is 20/20 vision. Looking back over time I can see how God worked in my life, although I remember at the time that I couldn't see my hand in front of my face. I feel that way now, which is normal. The future is uncertain here on earth and all we can do is strive to obey God in every area of our life. I've learned that if I seek after God and obey Him in my life, then He will direct my steps as He promised. The Bible says to trust the Lord and not to lean upon our own understanding (Proverb 3:5-7). That doesn't mean we will be perfect or won't make mistakes. No one is without sin. We all make poor decisions. We all mess up and hopefully learn from our shortcomings.
I'm not Dr. John R. Rice, that's for sure, but I'll tell you what... over 1,000,000 people are now visiting this website ministry monthly to hear what this nobody preacher has to say. I've never tried to be anyone else except who and what God made me. I've authored hundreds of books if you consider all my websites articles. Approximately 40,000 people visit this website daily. God is using my bodily afflictions and sufferings to reach people around the world. Eyes are being opened to the truth! I love what Brother Hyles teaches in his sermon, How We Got The Bible...
“God chose men and made them holy. He did not choose men who were holy; but rather, He chose men to make them holy. By that I mean He set them apart to be His pen.”
I don't claim to have any special knowledge nor private interpretation of the Scriptures, for the Bible plainly states that everyone can understand what God has written in the Bible. Deuteronomy 29:29, “The secret things belong unto the LORD our God: but those things which are revealed belong unto us and to our children for ever, that we may do all the words of this law.”
James 4:6, “God resisteth the proud, but giveth grace unto the humble.” It is God who lifts men up and puts men down. I have often wondered why God chose me, a nobody with poor health and a boatload of heartaches and troubles, but I am reminded of a Scripture in Isaiah 6:8, “Also I heard the voice of the Lord, saying, Whom shall I send, and who will go for us? Then said I, Here am I; send me.” Brother Hyles once said concerning the life of Samson... God will use a crooked stick if that stick is yielded to Him. Bless God, I am that crooked stick and I want to be used of the Lord.
But also, God saw my heart, that I was humble and loved the truth. There are many men who desire to be in the ministry, but they do not love the truth. Instead, they love their position, money, the title, the pulpit, the prestige, the high-life, the fringe benefits of being in a position of leadership, the power of influence over people. But God saw that money means nothing to me, and that I am willing to suffer preaching THE TRUTH. God saw that I would go work in his field, like the angry son who repented and afterwards went; rather than speak kind words while playing church and never doing anything for God as the unreliable son...
Matthew 28-31, “But what think ye? A certain man had two sons; and he came to the first, and said, Son, go work to day in my vineyard. He answered and said, I will not: but afterward he repented, and went. And he came to the second, and said likewise. And he answered and said, I go, sir: and went not. Whether of them twain did the will of his father? They say unto him, The first.”
There are tens-of-thousands of deadbeat pastors and ministers all across America who have a group of 25-50 people in their congregation; yet God has blessed my labors for the Lord with over 40,000 visitors per day and; and, if the trend continues, over 12,000,000 total visitors per year. If only one out of every 10,000 people who visit my website (it is God's ministry) are reached for Christ in some way, that's 1,200 people per year being saved, challenged to go soul-winning, woken up to the truth, encouraged or forever changed by the power of God's Spirit (Zechariah 4:6). The other 11,998,800 people have had seeds of truth planted in their hearts. Amen and amen! Glory to God! Hallelujah!!!
There are far more people skilled at writing than me, who are much more linguistic and better able to communicate. There are many people who have a steady and stable life, having it all together; whereas my life is a disaster like Job's life. God could have picked any one of millions of people better qualified for the job than me, but He put it in my heart to do this great work for God. Why? Only God knows the answer to that question, but I am so grateful and overwhelmed with joy that God has done great things since 2002 through my humble and relentless labors. If it be God's will for this ministry to continue, then all the hordes of Hell cannot stop it; but if it be God's will for it to cease, then all the powers of this universe won't keep it going another day. This is God's ministry and website! I am just His servant.
Psalms 139:17, “How precious also are thy thoughts unto me, O God! how great is the sum of them!” Now you know why David was called “a man after God's own heart,” that is, because David was a man after God's own thoughts!
I was greatly humbled a couple years ago when a man wrote to me and said, “You're doing the work of 1,000 pastors.” I am not worthy of the least of God's tender mercies; but God is using this humble nobody, this crooked stick like Samson, this chief of sinners like Paul, this man of unclean lips like Isaiah, this repentant sinner like David, this man after God's own heart who loves the Words of God. God will use anybody who volunteers to be used for His will and purpose. There is a work for every Christian.
This ministry began with prayer years before it began. I used to cry and beg God in the parking lot across from the church for God to use my life. When every car had gone, and I was the only person left in the parking lot, I prayed and cried until after midnight, begging God to use this nobody to accomplish something great for God with my life.
I used to drive to downtown Chicago after work, where my father used to pastor a skid-row mission at 34 S. Desplaines. I had grown up around skid-row and Pacific Garden Mission, tagging alone with my father. The mission had been torn down in the late 1980's and was now only a parking lot. I used to sit in that parking lot after work. Even though I got off work after midnight, I drove down there because it was a special spot for me, where I cried and prayed for God to use my seemingly insignificant life to reach others greatly for Christ. I cried and I cried, oftentimes pulling over on a side-street after work to pray and cry and search the Scriptures for guidance from God. My heart was being prepared for the work God had for me to do. God has given to me a preacher's heart, concerned about the soul's of people. Sadly, most pastors today have a used car salesman's heart, always looking for an angle to make more money. They have their reward.
Philippians 2:13, “For it is God which worketh in you both to will and to do of his good pleasure.” That is why this website is here, i.e., because God has done a work in my heart to will and to do of His good pleasure. Amen and amen!
I suffer every day of my life, trusting God to see me through to another day. Unfortunately I just can't handle e-mails anymore, and I apologize to those who want to communicate with me. We'll have plenty of time up in Heaven, and I believe that time will be very soon. God's grace is the only answer (Hebrews 4:15-16).
I have endured the Devil afflicting me ever since my ministry began to grow in 2004. I started the work in 2002. Only the Lord knows the depth of suffering that I've endured. Job didn't have it so bad. The book of Job reads like a biography of my life. Job 16:20-21, “My friends scorn me: but mine eye poureth out tears unto God. O that one might plead for a man with God, as a man pleadeth for his neighbour!” Job 19:19, “All my inward friends abhorred me: and they whom I loved are turned against me.” I have a faithful Savior in Heaven and that is my hope. Jesus is precious!
I ask for your earnest prayers for this ministry and me daily. This ministry is much bigger than me, it's about the Lord Jesus Christ, Who is THE WAY, THE TRUTH, and THE LIFE (John 14:6)! HEAR YE HIM!
“Even so, come, Lord Jesus” (Revelation 22:20).
I love you all in the Lord, whoever you may be!
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